Does anyone remember me? I know I have been missing for a VERY long time in the world of blogging. You may not have noticed or wondered why but for those of you who do here is my confession.
Back in July 2014 I went to write my Fitness Theory exam; the first step in me becoming a personal trainer and the final results were not as I had hoped. I got 40 out of 60 questions right and I could only afford to get 12 wrong in order to pass. I was upset and embarrassed but decided that I would try not let it ruin the summer vacation Warren and I were headed on the very next day. Well, it did affect our vacation but it wasn’t until after we got back home and I had time to reflect that I realized why I was the way I was while we were away.
After we got back home I hide away from the fitness world I guess you could say. Some friends would ask me about workouts and what they could do but I didn’t feel confident in my ability to tell them. I avoided helping and just stuck to running because it was easy to do. I put my Fitness Theory text and materials in a drawer and left them there. Hidden was better than seeing them everyday. Instead of focusing on studying harder and finally passing the exam I felt disappointment in myself and wondered what people thought of me. Those who knew I was writing the exam said that I would do great because I was born to be a personal trainer. But, if that was the case why did I fail the exam? How could I let people know that I was not as good as they thought? How could I write to everyone on my blog and let them know about my failure? What was the purpose now of Early Bird Fitness? I had so many questions and the answers were unknown so I avoided everything.
Finally closer to Christmas, after a talk with my good friend Sharon I started to think in my head about posts that I would share with you and how I would reintroduce myself back into the world of blogging. I was ready to share my news and where I had been. But then there was my out-of-date website. I love it and how it looks but I didn’t get it this way. I am not savvy with HTML, CSS and all those other acronyms used to describe and do web design. All the behind the scenes work and credit goes to my friend Brad at Creative Juices. So, over Christmas break I started to try and play around with the behind the scenes work but have had no luck to date.
So, now what perhaps you are asking? Well, over the Christmas break Warren said to me that we needed to find me a hobby. I said that I have one; it is my blog. I have started to try and learn how to edit it but it will be a long process. For now it will be out-of-date with some information and pictures but bare with me as I learn. I am back to write and tell you all the random things that I do show me on the blog again. I love writing and have missed it.
As for my exam, I am working with Sharon to try again. I don’t have a set date to write and I am relearning slowly but surely. She is helping me with tricks to remember the bones and muscles and so far I have the skeletal system down with many, many more muscles to go.
And finally I realized that my friends don’t care whether I fail an exam or not. They aren’t my friends because they think I should be a personal trainer. They are my friends because they like who I am. They like that I can take them outside their comfort zone at times when working out and support them when they need it. Thank you to all of you.
I feel that sharing this information about me is beneficial in many ways both for myself and others. I am not looking for sympathy. I need to share this as part of my healing process.
Until my next adventure…